I had a plan. Perfectly laid out on my Pinterest boards for how the birth was going to be. A month before my due date when the doctor said, “we need to take her now,” I wasn’t ready. But we walked into the hospital and checked in at the doctor’s order.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. –Jeremiah 29:11, ESV
I met my precious baby. Soon the doctors swooped in to take her and explained, “your baby is very sick.” I couldn’t hold her or get up to visit her. Had to tell big sister, “you can’t hold your baby sister because she is sick right now.”
Told the photographer selling newborn packages, “no, my baby is in NICU so I won’t be able to take the newborn pictures but thank you.”
Whirlwind of doctors…She needs this, that, more blood drawn, another IV in another tiny vein, another procedure. We are discharging you but she can’t go today. Morning after morning, “No, she can’t go home yet.”
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness. –Lamentations 3:22-23
We didn’t tell anyone who didn’t need to know. It all happened so fast I forgot to call my grandmas. 11 days in the hospital and two months of intense treatment. My baby was poked way too many times, but is perfectly and completely well.
I will tell you the truth. Others were more worried than I. The Lord healed and comforted me during those 11 days in the hospital. It was quiet, peaceful, and I knew that as the doctors were doing what was needed to help my baby, all was well. I never for one minute worried that my baby wouldn’t completely recover. I hated the constant pokes. I did not want her to be sick. It was not the situation I envisioned or desired. However, I believe in a God who is all seeing, all knowing, in control, and fully capable of handling every situation in my life without my constant worry and fear. Her name was chosen in prayer before we knew any of the complications. The meaning is Victory and Joy. I knew without a doubt that were coming OUT with VICTORY and JOY.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.–John 14:27
We would do better to let go of those things we cannot control. We would profit to trust God and not turn to the ways of the world for wisdom and comfort. We must have peace and confidence that God loves us, has a plan for good, and will not allow us to go through more than we can bear.
Today, on her birthday, I am once again comforted. Thankful that I serve a God who is bigger than I. A God who is still on the throne and who reigns over everything going on in my life.
To the dear one who desperately needs to know: May you have an encounter with the King of Kings and Lord of Lords that changes your life and brings you VICTORY, JOY, and peace which surpasses all understanding. He is all-wise, all knowing, and will SURELY lead you as you put your trust in Him.
For you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills before you shall break forth into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.–Isaiah 55:12
God bless you.